The Final Decision

"They plan and Allah plan. Surely, Allah is the best planners" (Quran 8:30)

Pernah mengeluh? merasa gagal? terpuruk? atau dilema dan galaunya luar biasa? I feel that. But, now I realized that it's the process of mature kalau kita mengeluh dan berkeluh kesah hanya pada-Nya. Absolutely, He will guide us, He will listen to our heart, and He will give the best for us, not what we want but what we need. Here, I will share how my life was going so far through this year. Setiap kegagalan atau penundaan, pasti akan ada hikmah yang telah Allah persiapkan. Semoga bisa meningkatkan keyakinan kita pada "rencana-Nya", karena Dialah sebaik-baiknya pembuat rencana. If you have similar experience, you can comment in the comment box and let share to others.

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Setelah melewati masa-masa terberat dan penuh kegalauan, detik ini tidak disangka saya sudah berada di belahan bumi Allah yang lain. Ketika bangun tidur, masih ada pertanyaan dalam diri saya. Am I dreaming? Is it real? Semua berjalan begitu cepat hingga saya belum sempat berpamitan dengan beberapa teman, tetangga di rumah, dam juga pengasuh.

Mei 28, 2019

I received an email from the university to confirm my attendance to the campus since the commence class would be held a month later. At that time, the condition of my mom was getting worse, then I tried to discuss with my dad in advance. Yet, my mom listened to our discussion and suddenly said: "sudah bismillah diambil saja". I remember that I ever asked my mom, "Bu, tapi jumlah dana beasiswa nya ngga sebanyak LPDP, aku coba LPDP lagi aja ya?", and my mom answered, "Kamu mau cari ilmu apa cari uang?".Now, I realize that the knowledge is really more values than money. Ya, saya belajar dari Ibu bagaimana beliau begitu mencintai dan menghargai Ilmu. Hingga di akhir hidupnya, beliau masih seorang tholabul ilmi, mahasiswa S3 yang sedang menyelesaikan BAB 4 disertasinya.

Mei 29, 2019

Before I decided to reply to the email, I tried once more to convince myself by asking my mother again because I believe that ridho from the parents is the most important consideration. "Bu, ini bener ya diambil? Yang penting Ibu seneng" and she said "Ya, ibu seneng, ibu bangga". "Tapi, nanti ibu sama siapa dirumah?". "Nggak papa, nanti kan ada kakak, gantian sama kakak". Unexpectedly, this discussion will be the last talk with my mother, it happened the day before she passed away.

June 7, 2019

The day of idul fitri is the golden time to gather with my family. I feel blessed that Allah give me the best support system through them. They helped me a lot. Thanks to Aunt Lis who helped to arrange my flight schedule. I booked a flight for June 24, 2019; about 3 days before the class.

June 11, 2019

The condition of 'Arus Mudik' forced me to go to Surabaya instead of Jakarta by bus to apply for VISA Ed at Royal Thai Consulate. Unfortunately, I had a problem that the document of LoA is needed to be an original one. Immediately, I sent an email to the University and I went back to Semarang on June, 15 to pack the luggage.

buku berbahasa Indonesia yang kubawa tapi ternyata tidak terpakai disini :D

proses packing yang terribet dan tersingkat

June 20, 2019

The document has arrived at Semarang and I took the document to the office of EMS in the morning then directly went to the station to take a train to Surabaya at 11 am. The next day, I came to the Royal Thai Consulate again to apply for the VISA. Based on the procedure, my VISA would be issued after three working days (June, 26). That condition really made me frustrated since I have booked my flight on June, 24 and the class would be started on June, 27. I tried to send an email again to the university to let them know that I would be late to come to the commence class. Again, I also tried to be brave to reschedule my flight to June, 26. In case, the VISA was not issued yet on Tuesday, I would reschedule again my flight.

 Dear Tomorrow (Maudy Ayunda), buku terfavorit yang menemani hari-hari hecticku

June 21, 2019

I spent my time to check up with my dentist in Malang then we decided to take out the bracket on my teeth and used the retainer even though the program still hasn't finished yet. Unfortunately again, the retainer would be ready on June, 24. After the retainer was ready on Monday, I realized that my Tumblr dropped at my sister's rent house. I called her and we met at the university where my bachelor's program was taken. I was thinking, should I ask permission to my lecturer? Qadarullah, Allah guide my step by step. The unpredictable way guides me to maintain the habit to always keep in touch and ask ridho from the teachers. We had a valuable talk and I feel blessed again that Allah gives me this opportunity. My lecturer said that "Kebahagian dari pemberian Allah akan sangat jauh lebih menyenangkan daripada kesedihan atau kegagalan atas apa yang kita inginkan, dan sesuatu yang terjadi di luar jangkauan logika manusia berarti itu datangnya dari Allah". Moreover, approximately at 1 pm, I came back to Surabaya and hope that the VISA has been issued. Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. The VISA was ready and I came back to Semarang at the night by travel since the ticket of the train was sold out due to the high season of holiday.

bye-bye, pengganjal makan :D

berpamitan dengan kampus tercinta di iconic spot yang baru

thank you imam !

thank you mbak alfi dan tim INBIO

alhamdulillah, akhirnya VISA nya keluar setelah berbagai drama

June 25, 2019

I arrived at Semarang around 6 am and I directly asked my father to accompany me for ziarah to maqbaroh of my mom at Kudus. At noon, I packed all the necessary things and made sure that the luggage is not more than 40 kg. Thanks to Zulfa who helped until 1 am for packing and re-packing.

alfatihah :(

3 koper + 1 ransel + 1 tas laptop + 1 tas kecil berhasil di packing setelah bongkar berkali-kali

thank you, puput!

June 26, 2019

My flight has been scheduled to take off at 6 am but I just arrived at the airport around 45 minutes before and I had a problem that my luggage was overweight (2 kg) and I should repack my luggage.

thank you, zulfa!

bongkar koper di bandara karena overweight :(

At Jakarta, I had a leisure time around 5 hours and Qadarullah, I met with Habib Syech and Gus Muwafiq. I walked next to Gus Muwafiq and asked his dua for my further study. Speechless, Unbelievable sight, Indescribable feelings (jangan auto nyayi ya wkwk). I feel that Allah showers His blessings to me.

I arrived at Bangkok around 5 pm, and once more, I felt blessed that Allah helped me. Thanks to Mr. Kevin Muliawan, a doctor and a lecturer of Universitas Surabaya, who picked me up and assisted me on my initial days in Bangkok.

Thank you, Garuda Indonesia !

sedredeg itu bisa berfoto bersama beliau T.T

transit 5 jam yang berkah :)

thank you, Ima!

thank you, dr Kevin! maafkan tiga koper yang meribetkan naik turun tangga station

June 27, 2019

I have a class guys at morning! the first day of my study was conducted to learn about Biomolecules. Although I still felt jetlag and came late to the class, Alhamdulillah I was still enjoying the lectures. After the class, I went to the Faculty of Graduate Studies to do the belated check-in. Alhamdulillah tsumma Alhamdulillah, officially I am a student of Immuology program at Faculty of Medicine Siriraj Hospital, Mahidol University. 

See? Penundaan hal kecil seperti jadwal keberangkatan pesawat yang membuat frustasi, ternyata Allah gantikan dengan keberkahan bertemu Kyai idola. Sekedar botol minum yang tertinggal, Allah izinkan dan sempatkan bertemu dan meminta restu dari guru. Dan, kegagalan percobaan berbagai pekerjaan dan beasiswa, Allah gantikan dengan jalan yang begitu cepat tak disangka. Tentunya, kita tidak boleh lupa, bahwa kunci yang utama adalah ridlo dari orang tua, terutama Ibu. Mom, I will do my best here.